Hm… So recently, not really, it’s just literally an hour ago, my cousin’s wife followed me on Instagram. Well, it’s really nothing wrong with that but, we all know what I post on my Instagram. It’s my Instagram. I post shizz I like and things I thought worth posting but now, I felt so insecure, probably because I’m not publicly out yet.
I know I can’t hide forever but I’m not ready yet telling my dad I have a girlfriend and I love her and I’m not willing to disappoint him. Honestly I have no idea how my dad would react to this because he had never said anything on this topic. He understands that being gay is not a choice but he also did said something like hoping I’m not. Part of me know he knows and that I want him to find out. Maybe because I would never know how to tell him, at least for now.
I feel so caught in between. I don’t know what to do.